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didvenusblowyourmindI saw Pearl Harbor again last night. I love that movie, it makes me just ... proud. Proud to be an American. Though I wish Danny ... eh, I won't spoil it if you haven't seen it. If you have, you know *exactly* what I'm talking about. *cries*
July 19th will probably be such a long day ... the whole day up until I leave in the evening, just ... waiting. Waiting, knowing the inevitable is coming. Feeding the cats one last time. Checking my email one last time. Hugging my family one last time. *cries again* It's going to be so hard.
It hit me, when I was watching Pearl Harbor yesterday, and they were talking about the "dirty Germans" ... I'm so lucky. I get to go to the country that used to be our enemy and LIVE there and become a PART of the culture ... I can't wait to go. I'm so lucky, but it also hit me how REAL it's going to be. How real it will all be. I'll really be there for a year and months will pass and I'll go to school and eat sausages and say "Jesus Christ" like "Yay-sus krist" without even thinking (or not at all since that's supposedly offensive, though I guess that's true here too) And ... I don't know. It's all very wow.
I don't have much else to say. I wish Mom would get home so I could go out, but then I have to face my former employers at Target and ask for my last paycheck and ... and go to the gym and all and that's blah but still. I hope the simpler bikes are free. And that I can figure out how to use them, cause I'm sick of the Stairmaster (funny how easily I get sick of that, huh?!) But I want a soda. Except, the new building at the college burned down today (grrr ...) and so no one can even get past it to the little corner store to get a soda, but oh well. I want to go to the mall. I want a bikini top, except I'm broke. But my lovely little 6.99 blue bikini top from American Eagle ripped! Well, one of the halter ties did and that's enough. It's not totally ripped but I'd hate to be wearing it and suddenly have a "Hall of Shame" moment for Teen, y'know? Pray tell, can I wear a black bikini top with blue bikini bottoms? I hope so, cuz I doubt I'll find the same color top. Maybe I'll get a tankini top but I want my top it look ... heh, bigger, y'know? I'm way too little.
But oh well. I'm done rambling!!!
July 19th will probably be such a long day ... the whole day up until I leave in the evening, just ... waiting. Waiting, knowing the inevitable is coming. Feeding the cats one last time. Checking my email one last time. Hugging my family one last time. *cries again* It's going to be so hard.
It hit me, when I was watching Pearl Harbor yesterday, and they were talking about the "dirty Germans" ... I'm so lucky. I get to go to the country that used to be our enemy and LIVE there and become a PART of the culture ... I can't wait to go. I'm so lucky, but it also hit me how REAL it's going to be. How real it will all be. I'll really be there for a year and months will pass and I'll go to school and eat sausages and say "Jesus Christ" like "Yay-sus krist" without even thinking (or not at all since that's supposedly offensive, though I guess that's true here too) And ... I don't know. It's all very wow.
I don't have much else to say. I wish Mom would get home so I could go out, but then I have to face my former employers at Target and ask for my last paycheck and ... and go to the gym and all and that's blah but still. I hope the simpler bikes are free. And that I can figure out how to use them, cause I'm sick of the Stairmaster (funny how easily I get sick of that, huh?!) But I want a soda. Except, the new building at the college burned down today (grrr ...) and so no one can even get past it to the little corner store to get a soda, but oh well. I want to go to the mall. I want a bikini top, except I'm broke. But my lovely little 6.99 blue bikini top from American Eagle ripped! Well, one of the halter ties did and that's enough. It's not totally ripped but I'd hate to be wearing it and suddenly have a "Hall of Shame" moment for Teen, y'know? Pray tell, can I wear a black bikini top with blue bikini bottoms? I hope so, cuz I doubt I'll find the same color top. Maybe I'll get a tankini top but I want my top it look ... heh, bigger, y'know? I'm way too little.
But oh well. I'm done rambling!!!
